The more moms I meet,
the more a familiar drumbeat:
“Staying home was nearly my defeat.”
Caught in a web of desires and needs,
balancing caretaker with feelings of greed
for wanting to be at work, still taking the lead.
Twelve weeks in and I’m finally learning how
to function as mom and pause in the now.
But soon our days together will take their final bow.
I will return to work, and you’ll go to meet new friends.
The thought of time away makes my heart bend –
partly excited, partly destroyed as my maternity leave comes to an end.